Thank you

Im failing and falling apart.

I need answers.

Failing forward and failing hard

Things have really fallen apart lately. I am striving to keep them together.

More breaking though.

I am on my 5th week of learning and taking action on design and coding. Things are coming together for me.

I have had to do what I have never done.

I have done nothing but focused on learning for the last 3 weeks. I have a grasp on Photoshop that I have never had before. I am doing html/css/javascript I must be agile and able to deploy pages as fast as possible.

Fail

I am not a failure
I can do this
I have all of the bits
what I do is wait for an answer... an answer that can only be questioned by failing
I am afraid of failing
I dont take the jump
I just wait, like it is going to hurt less, but it hurts more, I end up more conflicted


I am not doing, I am waiting... that is not going to make what I do a success

Maybe I will change gears now.

I do not follow though
I do not buy ad consistently enough

I will lose $200 and quit... this just isnt how it works

I see now how I have been doing it wrong. $9 payouts mean that i need to spend a lot more to optimize.

Im going to go smaller

I feel like an idiot

Tracking is such a simple thing, yet I cannot get it to work how I expect it.

It just doesnt come together for me in my head.

Why can everyone else seem to do this and I cannot figure it out.

Im so close

So close!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im all over the place

Looking back, I can see how I never stuck with something. I never gave it my all. Now, it is time to rise, I know that I can do this. I know that I can pull this off.

Hope!

Jesus is my hope!
I thank him daily!

things are going well.

I am on track with some ads that are about to turn profitable.
I am working with someone that is determined to get me profitable
I am about to go on vacation.
I have a prosperous future ahead of me!!!
I thank Jesus he made it happen.

Im so grateful!

Today I took a leap with a mentor... Im excited to work with someone that can be a partner than I can trust. Someone that God provided for me.

I know that I am just days away from profit and just a few weeks away from understanding why my campaigns never worked.

I know this is my breakthrough!!!

Jesus wants me to Prosper!!!! This is it!! I am building a legacy for my children. I am providing for them. My risks are about to pay off!!!

Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jesus is with me.

I have been going through some heavy stuff. I know Christ is with me right now.

I know this as a fact
I know this is the truth
I know that this is a fact
I know that this is the truth

Im not defeated!!!

I pulled up my pants and I am back at it.

I am working on redefining what makes a campaign unsuccessful. Though this I should be able to find profits by not quitting so early on in the process.

A lot of this I think comes from my own belief system ... I do the research, launch, and when the campaign falls flat I dont keep pushing. I turn it off.

I feel defeated.

I havent written in a journal in a few days so why not take a minute to wrong something here.


I dont know what I have to do.
I dont know what I have done wrong.
I dont know what I can do to create change.


I feel like a failure.
I do not know how to change that.

I work, I build, I launch, I fail, it is an endless cycle. I want to cry.

I blog less and less but i will never stop!

I keep a paper journal now. I do something in it almost everyday.

this blog is mostly for long term reflection and I rarely go back and read it.

My biggest problem is taking action.

Wow, its been a month since I last posted.

Not much to say really. The same BS...

Im missing something... everyone knows something I dont. . . even the training that I just picked up seems like crap.

Blackhat isnt what it was a year ago and I lost a ton on media buying.

I could cry... I work so hard, and I keep trying and I just fall flat on my face again, and again.

2016 is all about doing it different.

New tracking
New offers
New cpa network
New demographic


Lets see what happens now.

A new year with new goals.

Kill it

a new approach, fresh traffic sources, new people to work with.


We will start media buying back up in a few weeks.