I cracked

I havnt had the time to work today and I was really looking forward to tomorrow but some came up and I will not be able to spend the time working that I would like to. But being Christmas season, somethng came up and I will not have the tile that I need tomorrow. Well I split on Courtney it got bad I started flailing she started crying, I'm just under a lot of stress. I don't know what to do

embarrassing

Its embarrassing that I dont know what to do. I feel like I dont know where to start. I understand the basics. How to research my keywords, how to get wordpress up and going. How to establish backlinks. . .How to find products, Im approved with many affiliate programs. But why I dont know where to START? I dont understand how to build a page with the purposes of split testing. . .how DO you create a site with multiple colors and measure the results?



I just dont understand what to put on a site, its like I have a mental block, what content to put on a site. I just dont know.

Socialism

We had a few people over for a fast Christmas exchange. We got to play some card games and had some baked brie. Good times for sure. I ended up loosing interest and attempted to get a firewire audio interface to work.


Now, back to work, I am watching a video series on article marketing.

I makes me sad too

I really want to work hard and work on projects with others. But I never get the opportunity to. Is this just becoming a pity party? Anything is possible I guess.

Im just pissed off, I feel that I will be come a sour person.

I am always looking for friends that work on the same business. I have found no one, no matter how many people in affiliate marketing I try to befriend none of them want to be friends with me. Why not? I dont know.

More wasting of time.

Yesterday I went to the RHOA office and got some work done. It feels good to actually work, but they are not able to pay me right now so it doesnt really help me situation.

I did launch 2 dating campaigns on Facebook, one is yet to be approved and the other just doesnt seem to be getting impressions.

This is funny

Get up

I woke up early today with some new ideas. Most of them are simple about taking action and not being so passive.

I have to go and work with my pal Chris today at his office.

I

I should be reading forums less eh?

Spent

Most of my day has been spent in despair. Unsure of my future as an affiliate marketer. I looked at some blogs, read some forums, played some world of warcraft, went out to lunch with my girlfriend and I just dont feel inspired. Am I being affected by what is essentially affiliate block? I looked over some of the 30 day challenge material . .I think that I will go back to that now.

Why am I not making money?

I think that this is because I am not launching campaigns. If I could just get one campaign to generate more than 10% profit I would be happy. I am not launching because I do not understand the complete picture.


find a market

find a product

research the keywords

build a landing page <--- I hate web design

get some back links <-- is social bookmarking my only option?

launch using my favorite ppc methods

profit

Fed up

I am totally fed up with affiliate marketing and ppc. But I dont stop, so I am using this blog to vent my frustration and pinpoint why I continue to fail.


The first reason seems to be a lack of focus. I spend most of my doing things other than making money.

This is because I am not making money online and I want to ignore the fact that Im not making any money.

Because Im not making money, I cannot get excited about it and therefor I occupy my mind with other things.