Dunno

Sometimes I dont know what I am doing. I have learned to change my focus a bit to a more content marketing stance. It is a little bit exciting, but honestly I havent done much this week. Nothing seems to be working for me so I havent put in any effort.

Doing it right

Lots of planning. I am working hard to plan all ads, all expenses, all angles, daily schedules. I am always missing discipline, maybe this will help. Setting things up, planning, researching, planning more, doing it again and again.

Sometimes I dont know

After a long ass talk with a friend last night I am starting to think that I am just a slacker. I did some work, I made some money, but it was all in just a few hours, what if I worked all day? What if I really worked all day? a 10 hour day could be $600 a day for me I think... I just gotta do it, what keeps me from doing it?

Today I feel like organization is an issue, I guess I need to work on that.

Fitting the pieces together.

business is really like a puzzle. You dont really know what you are doing because it has never been done before. You just dive in and start doing and you shoe horn the bits together until you have results that you can measure.

Then you measure and start over again, maybe you have direction this time, maybe not. Tonight was a night where the pieces were coming together but I couldnt get them to fit. Almost no matter what I did tonight I couldnt get everything to work in harmony. Im going to take a few hours off and hit it again in the am.

Working

I stopped, I had a rough weekend with a lot of social obligations. That kinda threw me off and I lost my spin. Now that has been followed with erratic internet for several days.  Is that enough to stop me? Yes, it has been, should it? No, that's just dumb. I lack discipline, and that has been something really hard for me to establish.  I also feel that I do not get enough time off, either I am working like a beast, or I am doing nothing. I need to make sure that I am taking time off weekly, maybe even two days off.

I am really enjoying this personal blogging, no one really ever sees it, if they do I don't know who it is. But going back and looking at my thoughts over time is interesting. I can see that I am always saying the same thing, Im not working hard enough.

Why do I work ?

I don't know.  I suppose it is a certain level of freedom I have heat. I have the ipad that I am writing this on.  But what else beyond that? I don't love work, that is for sure. At least not what I am currently doing. Can I learn to love it? Or should I? Sometimes I like it, dealing directly with customers I do not enjoy. But no, more than that...

Why do I work? Is it to have freedom? Is it to build a family? I am in the unique situation of having everything that I want. Now I have to keep it together. Being. Arrived with children takes a lot of time and Had been stressful on me lately.  Do this, go there, do that now go here.  It can really feel like to much on top of being the best parent and husband that I can.

Working from home has a lot to do with it.  I cannot say no because I simply do not have the same level do obligation as someone that has a regular job.

I need goals both long term and short term
I need discipline
I need something to be regular in my life.  I think I go to sleep at a different time every night.  I don't even know to be honest.

I need a bigger todo list so that I can see what my goals are.  To see them laid out in front of me paving the way to...my long termr goals.

Working harder

Im trying to hard to get more done. . . working from home has been a real problem this week. We will see what the future holds.

Working hard

Working hard is a lot of work, traffic quality is suffering and it is a lot harder than I wish it was lately. Perhaps I can get this to change soon.