PUSH

I pushed hard, I finally have a good consistent routine i think. Now my traffic has floundered today. Im working on that again. I wanted to hit my biggest week but I dont think I will make it without the traffic.

How is it that they do it but I cannot seem to...

This is a draft from 4/19/13 ...I do not know what was on my mind that day.

Being consistent is hard.

Really hard, life feels like a circus lately. When I do sit down to work, I do not feel like I have more than just an hour or two to achieve my goals and I need much more time than that.  Building rapport with clients the way I am doing right now takes a lot of work, and a lot of focus, an hour just doesnt cut it.

The wife also feels that this has been a crazy week, so I am glad that I am not the only one that feels this way.

I did some decent numbers, two weeks in a row and this last week has been a major flop, I just dont feel like I can sit down and get anything done before something commands my attention somewhere else. Even as I am writing this, I know that I only have about an hour before I need to leave to pick up my daughter. I guess that maybe I am wasting time with blogging, but I also feel the need to discuss my problems and put them on the proverbial paper.

Gaming and music feels like a distraction too, I do not have time for them, but I dabble, 15 minutes here and there until I have spend an hour and a half a day just wasting time. Perhaps I need a tighter schedule, I am not sure.

How is it that they do it but I cannot seem to do it? What am I missing?

Consistent

Being consistent is something that I have never been able to do very well. It is why I didnt finish school, never finished college, never held a job for very long. I grow impatient, I let my confidence (ego) get in the way. I give too much time to things that do not deserve my time (gaming) ... I must learn to be consistent, I must push forth... I must do this I have no other choice.

Fucking blogging

I have kept up the pace now for a few months, not a regular pace of often, several times a month. Im not much of a writer, I dont know what to write about most of the time and it is probably always short.

I have busted, I hit March hard for the first week or so then things just flopped totally. The thing about this business is that you must have several projects to keep you going at once. Until the first one really takes off I will have trouble with other incomes. Damn it. I cuss my self daily for this, I need a better solution than this. Im mad at myself because I know what I can do, I am just not sure why it isnt getting done as fast as I need it to.

Flopped

I cannot get traffic again...crap on me