Pushing is hard

Im up to my knees is traffic, working through the growing pains.

it is hard
it is a challenge
I want to give up
most people would give up
it isnt easy, when one thing is working, something else fails


This is go time, this is where the important stuff happens.


do it, do not stop

Getting on the train

Im dipping my toes into media buying and it is exciting... but so far, nothing has happened. I am changing... but it takes time.

Do I have what it takes?

I failed with my friends last month... nothing ever happened. This month has felt like a lot of catch - up ... a lot of days feel like catch - up... so I suspect that it is my own time management.

I have fought back against what I am bad at (time management) and gotten myself a virtual assistant. She is kicking ass even as I write this. This should help me propel things forward to build a genuine long term business.

I find myself with several full time employees and the more I outsource, the less that I want to do. I need to break the habit of being lazy and make a habit of taking action. Some days it feels like it is too late.

I know that I can do it, I just need to pull up my pants and take it like a man. I really enjoy management, It is a role that I have always felt that I would be happy in and I am. Now I need to build more businesses and get more done.

I need to fail faster, and I need to do it now.

Stasis

Not much of anything going on lately.

New hires never showed up.

Old employee moved and missed a week of work.

Software stopped working randomly.

Lost motivation I guess.

Travelling to the past.

Wow is all I can think of. . . 

So last week i talked to some old friends, and realized, they were really not doing good and needed some help and some focus... so I come up with some ideas and decided to pay them a visit. 

When I got there I was surprised how they were living. Like the poorest of the poor, they have food stamps, shop at Walmart... wear dirty clothes, man they smell bad, they dont shower...missing teeth, these guys have let themselves go. In the worst ways possible. 

I know them and trust them, I know that they can do the work that I have to offer them. Front them some money, show them a lot of the ins and outs of the work that we will be doing and I sleep on their filthy couch for a few days.

I really get some perspective, damn this could have been me. Im from the same neighborhood, we went to the same schools, worked at the same places, living together a few times. We did a lot of that stuff together but now... wow... Im on a different level, they cannot imagine what it is like to be me. Just like I cannot imagine what it is like to be them. 

I see the light though, I know that they can do what I do if they just believe. And now I know, I can do what it takes to be successful if I just believe. 

Let me get this straight, Im not looking down on my friends, but they have allowed some things to happen that they can fix. They need to get themselves together.... Im sure that the work that I can offer them can do that, but only time will tell if it all works out. 

Turning it up.

I am growing in ways I didnt expect, I have kept a lot of things really stable, it is working... now I have to push harder than I think that I can get to it to stay this way.


This is my road to a million dollars.

I got it!! I do, I really do.

I got it and Im never letting it go.