Friends

I woke up today with an email in my inbox it was for an ebay auction with an old nickelodeon guitar player. Really cool! I love music and how creative people can be with instruments. My friend knows this, so he sent me the auction, after that I found him on chat and we talked about music, Holidays all of that good stuff.

Damn, I have some good friends, some of my best friends I have known 10+ years, some go back more than 30 years! Lots of good times, adventures, all of that, friends really shine in my life. They are there when Im in need, or when Im not in need. I have never had a lot of friends, but I have always had good friends that were worth their weight in gold.

I should talk to some of my friends more often, thats for sure, and I know that I need to spend more time with them. I make excuses for working when I shouldnt. Work is important, but so is living.

Four days? Really?

I was a bit distracted this morning so I almost forgot to post the new things that I am thankful for. Quickly It jumped into my head that I am thankful for work.

I work independently as an affiliate marketer and I have for years. Never much success but I have made it through and had some big numbers. Now I have a wife and kid and it is harder to stick with it since the money isnt consistent. I struggle to get consistent income with my affiliate marketing.  Crap, even right now Im struggling to pay bills but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, every day I make progress with what I should and should not be doing.

Its hard, its a lot of work, and honestly I rarely know what I am doing, I just take a guess and jump hoping that it works to my advantage. But it gives me freedom, I am building value in myself, and I know that I can do this. Im very grateful for my career choice is it one that I will never regret.

Day 3! Only 19 more to go.

This will probably go longer than 19 days, but lets focus on today. Im not sure what to be thankful for today since it is suppose to be something new each day. Christmas is coming up, Im thankful that we have abundant gifts to give, and we have relatives coming into town. Christmas has been hard on our family each year, it is a huge source of stress since we never seem to have enough money. Im working hard to make that different this year, but their is still a lot of work to be done.

We have wonderful gifts for our daughter, I have something that my wife will love, we have gifts for friends and family so we should have everyone covered. Im thankful that we can give, I think it is wonderful feeling.

Today Im trying a new work schedule, that means staying up a lot later, and sleeping in a lot later...so far I dont like it :D but if it produces results with work I will do it ... and be thankful.

Lets be thankful

This is the second day of rewiring the brain, I had a good day yesterday so lets keep this going. Today I have numerous things to be thankful for. My wife, she lets me sleep in most mornings...I dont like to sleep in but it feels great, and she doesnt have to do it so its pretty awesome.

Oh she also brings me coffee after she drops our daughter off at the baby sitter, thats pretty cool too. Last night I ordered her Christmas gift, I think she is going to flip.

Its pretty cold this morning so I gotta be thankful for our home, it has a nice heating system, ceiling fans, and is modern enough that the bills are not too high and I can stay warm.

Thats all that I have this morning, I will be back tomorrow.

Rewiring Your Brain

Sounds like some urban tale, some crazy myth right? Well watch Shawn Achor talk about it.

http://www.ted.com/talks/shawn_achor_the_happy_secret_to_better_work.html


Commit to being grateful for positive things for 2 minutes everyday and your brain will rewire and give you the happy advantage.


Today the 10th of Dec Im grateful for
1. Finding this video, really makes me what to change how I operate. I have felt for a long time that the problem was me, but I know that I am in control of me.
2. Having free will and being able to control myself and my thoughts. I can do this if I apply myself.
3. Family, Friends, and Dogs...wow my house is fulled with love, now lets turn it up to 11.
4. This blog is years old, It has created a way for me to look back on the past and reflect on some lows in my life.


So thats it for today. I need to set up some reminders so that I can keep this up for several weeks.

Oh that feeling.

Im posting more often lately. I guess I just have more to say, or maybe I have less to say to other people and more thoughts to blog about.

I have everything I have ever asked for, a wonderful partner, an intelligent healthy child, I really love where I am at in my life right now. . .with one exception, I do not have any income. I have literally made nothing this month, this has been the worst month for me in a very very long time.

I have been selling this product, it sells well, the top sellers create 30 or 40 sales a week. I struggle with just 4 or 5. They do not tell me how they sell, they will not reveal anything. But many people make top sellers with the company, In a month I will see 5 or 6 different top seller names.

I should be able to make 20 sales right? Thats half of what the top salesperson does...and that is what I told myself 3 months ago when I set out to do this. 20 sales a week, it still hasnt happened. I did pull off 14 sales on week but it really seems liked pure luck that it happened.

I really need to get away from blackhat, but anything else seems to take money, money that I dont have. I just feel like Im in this downward spiral. As I said earlier, I have everything that I want so I feel like I have a lot to loose. It is a horrible feeling....

I have been an affiliate for more than 6 years.

I have failed too much, failed my family, my child, my home, my legacy.  I have everything that I have ever wanted, and I am setting my self up to loose it. It is a terrible feeling, I dont know what to do, my confidence has never been lower.